A BETRAYAL ON THE INFINITE EXPANSE OF TIME

Do you know how it feels like to be betrayed by one's own inner spirit...
the very spirit which lends voice to the soul and to the self?

Do you know how that can feel?

That moment of betrayal refuses to let go of me...or is it that I refuse to let go of that moment?
Why am I so inextricably bound to that moment like a mother is bound to her only child?
Why can't I break free of the endless ropes that tie me that moment?
Why can't I free my soul!

This dark fog that has descended over my Being..why won't it lift up?
Why won't it clear up to let in the warmth of sunshine or the calmness of moonshine?

Why can't my spirit regain its chutzpah?

These questions echo endlessly within me because
I am my own betrayer... I cannot point a blaming finger outwards..
The blaming finger points towards my own self...

"Time heals all wounds"..."Time and tide wait for none"..
All my hopes of breaking free rest on the ever dependable companion Time...
Time never betrayed any soul till date.

THOSE PAIR OF EYES

I saw myself reflected in those pair of eyes,
I saw there with astonishing clarity the whole of me,myself,moi...there"I"stood in all my pure worth and unworth.

I saw there the hidden parts of my soul...

The dark corners of my soul hidden beneath the surface was hidden no more..
It was out in the open,all too clearly,in those pair of eyes.

The blackness of my being positioned itself snugly in those pair of eyes..
Those pair of eyes did not seem to mind reflecting the dust and grime,
the tears and sorrow,
the pain and agony
the spite and bias ...of this self of mine.

Those pair of eyes would always cast( on my world) a look of limitless love... a love undefined and not easily attainable...

Now those pair of eyes"live"no more...they stare at me from photographs unblinking and unseeing..
Though the memories linger on, my mind cannot recreate the image of those pair of eyes...
For those eyes held unlimited love...
The mind cannot recreate the image of unlimited love..the mind can work only within limits..within boundaries...limitlessness numbs the mind into blankness...

But I know when Life makes me sit huddled in the corner of a dark room crying hopelessly
those pair of eyes will give me the strength to stand upto to the challenges offered by this presence or force called Life and look it sqaurely in the eye...

As to how much of "living force"does Life have without those pair of eyes to look into?
Aah..well..some questions are best left to fend for themselves!

THE COSMOS

HE,THE ENLIGHTENED ONE had broken free.
That was where his true victory lay..

HE had freed his mind from all of it..
From the stifling oppressiveness of a mind caged,bound and walled in from all four directions...
From the claustrophobic menace of the mind not being allowed to think for itself..
From the dog's leash with which the mind is reined in to follow the "ready-made"path..
From the precise accuracy with which any attempt to deviate from the "ready-made"path is shot down..
From the cunning manipulation with which any desire to forge one's own path is ridiculed..

From the shock of the mind being beaten to a pulp for daring not to follow the herd..
From the death-like tantrum of the mind strugling to come up for air at being pulled down into the swamp of the"normal path"...

Amid all this lifeless,soul-less living..
Amid all attempts at Destruction of his individuality
HE had broken free.

Atlast HIS mind was unchained,unbound,un-gagged and unwalled...HE was free!
There blossomed in his mind ,which hitherto had been an arid desert,the twin green fertile leaves of Knowledge and Realization.

The Knowledge of the Self and its Oneness with the entirety of the Cosmos.
The Knowledge of the Spark of Divinity within Him and every animate and inanimate thing within the Cosmos..
The knowledge that the Cosmos is infinite,limit-less and immensely powerful like his own mind.

The Realization that the only certain certainty of Life is Death.
The Relization that the lulling ,elusive, illusory nature of the world is like a mirage in the desert..meant to deceive,betray and give hope when in reality there is no hope at all.
The Realization that only the mind which has tapped into its immense potential can achieve self-realization and fulfillment.

Equipped with his twin green leaves of Knowledge and Realization he set forth on his path of Creation..the Creation of a new path...
From His soul which had become the Cosmos itself He gave birth to THE MIDDLE PATH..
The Middle Path which was,is and will always be the giver of solace,comfort and nourishment to millions of lost souls wandering in the darkness of their lost selves..

He will always be the liberator of souls..
For He had become the Cosmos...
The Cosmos had become Him...